Mon, 11 Mar 2013 00:18:13 -0600WeeblyFri, 22 Jul 2011 16:32:05 GMThttp://www.sacredfemininerising.com/3/post/2011/07/through-my-fathers-eyes.htmlNearly a month ago when I began this blog, I posed the following: "What if in this moment you let go of all the ideas, concepts, beliefs and attachments about who you think you are and who you think others to be? What would your world be like? ...What if we all showed up as our true selves and we met one another in the space? This is the world I envision and I know in the very core of my being that it is already here." Recently, I have been given the opportunity to rethink my relationship with my father.  You see, as a child he was not around physically, mentally or emotionally. Although, I always felt him around spiritually.

Nearly seven years ago, I had a wonderful opportunity to experience intense forgiveness at the core of my being surrounding the beliefs I had created and held on to about who I thought him to be. And at an even deeper level, I experienced forgiveness for myself for holding onto those beliefs and re-creating the same story in all of my relationships. The journey over the last seven years has been beautiful and inspiring.  Today, I feel fully expanded into my heart space and have dropped the thoughts, ideas and attachments including my projected story of his sorrow and regret for the choices he made. I have dropped my story about my idea of the life he has lived and my feelings about it. I have dropped my story about who I have wanted him to be and who would like him to be now and in the future for me and for Kiran.

The truth is, it takes only one moment, one breath to let go of all of this.  All you have to do is be willing and give yourself permission to be in that space. Right now, I look into his eyes and see him in pure radiance-his highest self. I see his truth. I feel his truth. And I know his truth. Through his beautiful  green speckled eyes, I see his soul.  He reflects this to me and I give myself permission to be witness to our souls meeting one another where we are, in this moment.  Next month, he will become our roommate! What I am deeply aware of in this moment is that we are kindred souls choosing to be here for one another; to share the beauty and mystery of life right now until we choose something different.

Be love now. This moment is all you really have!
Shela
]]>Tue, 05 Jul 2011 16:30:43 GMThttp://www.sacredfemininerising.com/3/post/2011/07/the-stranger-is-me.html The other day, while getting into my car in the parking lot, I noticed a small boy around 5 years of age.  The temperature outside was an excruciating 105. The boy was buckled in to the seat of a beat up little truck.  As I looked from a distance through the open windows, he peered straight ahead with an unemotional scowl on his face. “How sad” I thought to myself. I looked around for his mother. She sat in a half squat against the tailgate of the truck with angry energy. The thoughts, projections, ideas and beliefs began to stream my thoughts. “She seems so angry. Perhaps I can help her.” My thoughts became louder. “She looks like she is waiting for a dead-beat ex or boyfriend and doesn’t seem too happy about it. Maybe her car broke down. Or she could be out of gas.” My thoughts became even louder than my intuition. “Are you kidding me? She doesn’t want your help. You appear to have it all together. She is going to reject any offer you have. Besides, you don’t really have anything to offer her. She seems angry and you shouldn’t meddle in other people’s affairs”.

I continued to get in my car and slowly drive away. There was deep yearning for me to connect with this woman.  I continued to allow and to watch my thoughts. I questioned my decision to not engage her as I slowly drove down the next row of the parking lot still feeling like I could do something. I even paused for what seemed forever deciding ultimately to drive away.  As I left the scene, I turned to catch one last glimpse of this woman and her child.

I welcome this experience as yet another opportunity for growth and expansion. As I peer further through the window of my soul, I feel changed from this encounter.  I feel immense gratitude for this woman and her sweet child, these angels, for showing up and reflecting a very deep, intimate space in me that I have been yearning to discover and accept.  This stranger is me. She reflects deep feelings of isolation, anger, aloneness and separation that exist in me.  I know, though, that it is not me. It is a culmination of the conditioning I have accepted as me.  I embrace this aspect of me and wrap it in a warm blanket of love knowing in this moment, I choose something different.  I choose connection. I choose love. I choose belonging. What if in each moment, with each breath, we chose to show up, to be witness to this stranger in us; to expand into this space of intimacy through the reflection of another? This is how I choose to experience life. My wish is that you, too, can welcome these experiences as an opportunity to grow and expand into your true self.

Welcome home to love,
Shela

]]>Wed, 29 Jun 2011 16:16:48 GMThttp://www.sacredfemininerising.com/3/post/2011/06/first-post.html Thank you for connecting with me here. This blog is about love, randomness, kindness, conscious breathing, self-empowerment, blissful pregnancy and sacred birth, creating community, wonderment, being a woman, belonging, courage, mindful parenting and so much more. Most of all, it is about creating deep, intimate connections with all that IS.  These writings are for you. They are for me. They are intended to burst the heart wide open, inspire wonder, and cultivate growth and expansion. Here, on these pages, I will show up open-hearted and truly authentic! I will serve as your guide to remind you of the various doorways that will lead you to connect more deeply and intimately with yourself and others in this moment. These doorways are available to you in every moment. By turning within you can remember this.

Breathing out, you are connected to me. Breathing in, I am connected to you. Just for today, I invite you to explore the breath as a doorway to this possibility! So, right here~right now, I invite you to take a few long, deep, free breaths.  Allow yourself a few seconds to settle into yourself. On the inhale take in the abundance of energy~of life~and breathe it in to the very center of your being. Envision yourself receiving this breath, this life force, from another. Experience the deep, intimate connection. Allow the energy of this breath to fill each cell in your body with joy, peace and ease. Melt into this moment. Feel the energy expanding your consciousness. Sink into just a little deeper. On the exhale, expand this energy out into the universe. Envision your self giving this energetic breath to another. Experience the vulnerability in your giving and their receiving of this gift. Now allow it to pulsate throughout the planet. Let the energy of the exhale send healing love to all inhabitants of Mother Earth. Continue for 10 conscious breaths always remaining aware of your breath and the exchange of energy.

What if in this moment you let go of all the ideas, concepts, beliefs and attachments about who you think you are and who you think others to be? What would your world be like? Who would be there? Imagine it in detail. Feel it. Experience it. Journal about it. Talk about it. What if we all showed up as our true selves and we met one another in the space? This is the world I envision and I know in the very core of my being that it is already here.

I look forward to connecting deeply with you here in this sacred space. I welcome all comments, topic suggestions, and of course wide open, vulnerable hearts!

Welcome home to love,
Shela
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